Welcome to my journey

Hey Everyone ,
Welcome to my weight loss and life changing journey. I have no idea what the next 45 days will hold in store for me, and I invite you to come along for the ride. A little background.
I was a normal sized child. I was a very active kid, I played all kinds of sports and i stayed trim. When I turned thirteen I not only hit puberty , but my parents got divorced. My weight skyrocketed, in a matter of months I went from my normal healthy active self. To an overweight unhappy girl, with extremely low self esteem. In elementary school I was well liked and popular. IN middle school i was the fat girl that was constantly harassed and labeled with inaccurate titles. Somewhere between my freshman and sophomore year of high school i grew a backbone and the taunting quickly stopped. However the self loathing and lack of health did not. In fact when I was 16 I had my gallbladder taken out, shortly after I developed IBS. Now I was fat, unhealthy and had an embarrassing and debilitating disorder to contend with. Fast forward to me at 21 battling my weight and losing. I did get a few pounds knocked off and was temporarily happy with myself. I met my amazing husband that year and we were married within ten months. Fast forward again to three years later and the arrival of our daughter Lillian. When I was pregnant with Lil I had an extreme form of morning sickness and I literally threw up for 7 months straight. I lost 25 lbs, but I was never hungry. I did have horrible food cravings, which led to disastrous vomiting bouts, but i still was not hungry. I kept that weight off for a year. My daughter is now 2 years and 5 months old and I am at the largest i have ever been. I am 5'4 and I weigh 213 lbs. My clothes no longer fit, I am constantly exhausted and I am fighting with my body image.
So I am ready to do whatever to get the weight off, I have tried working out and eating "right" and it just does not work for me. However, I found something new and I am putting a lot of hope into it. HCG. Have you heard of it? I hadn't either. Then i met a friend for dinner and she looked amazing. She had recently lost 40 lbs, in a month using the hcg diet. So I have just ordered the 45 day kit. I plan on doing thirty days, going into maintenance for a month and then proceeding with the next 15. My goal weight is 150. That means I have to lose 63 lbs. Ideally if i weigh 150 i should be a size 10/12. It will be the first time since puberty that I can buy clothes off the rack. This weight loss should coincide with my 28th birthday on November 12th. I am giving myself this gift, the gift of being a new person. I really hope you will stick with me as I write about the struggles and triumphs to come.


Jessi